k: i basically got home at like 4 and like wrote until i crashed at like 7
s: aw!
k: .. just in time to get up for work at 930 hahah
k: i know lol
k: it was nice self-reflection time:)
s: oh well THAT'S always good
s: well, KIND OF
s: sometimes i'm seriously so immersed in self-reflection that i start getting overwhelmed with wonder at how fucking cool my mind is
s: i relish those moments haha
k: yes! do you really though? because i can like totally relate to that lol
k: which sort of makes me feel conceited in a way to be honest
s: me too
s: but it's all good
s: those are the most prime moments
s: when you feel like
s: you don't need anyone else because you're enough for yourself
s: like
k: because a part of me wonders if everyone can have such a like.. immersed feeling in themselves you know?
k: yes go on:) lol
s: i get to the point where im like
s: you know what? i could totally be okay living in an isolation room... i'd never get bored
s: but then i think... yeah... i'd kill myself
s: because i get more into my thoughts when i'm on the move
s: like i've found lately that i really get my head working when i'm travelling places.
s: like walking down the street or sitting on a train... best reflection times for me
s: i mean, to be honest, for the most part i don't like what goes on in my head
s: but then there are those moments. like the ones where im.. yknow.. like, surprised. and amazed. as mentioned above.
s: i guess for you it's more frequent though. i feel like it is.
k: i get what you mean about the whole thinking more when you're using your brain for other things. i feel like the less focused your thoughts are in a sense, the more you're able to let them get to those places that result in those feelings you know?
s: yes!
k: which explains my complete inability to do anything practical like say i dont know, light a cigarette the first try hahah
k: but yes, i guess i do experience those moments more often
k: but only for that reason
s: ha
s: ha
k: that im always a lot more lost in unfocused thought than most lol

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k: but why dont you like what goes on in your head most of the time?
s: i don't know... i guess for what you said much earlier
s: the unpredictable moods
s: as much as i'm all flow-y and water-y and all that (pisces, you know how it is), i do strive to find some sense of order in things
s: and it's frustrating when i can't
k: hahaha yay astrology
k: and i get it because im sort of the same in a sense
k: our problem is the capricorn
k: it craves that self-created slash imposed order and structure too much
s: self-created order.. that's rather accurate isn't it..
k: which can sometimes be used to our advantage though, just saying
k: mhm:)
s: HMMMM
k: astrology yo, we'll get you into it lol
s: oh no
s: you sound like a cult
k: oh but yes lol
k: hahahahahha
k: one day *far off look in eye
s: and i don't even know if you're using "we" as in there actually IS a cult or if you're just referring to yourself, shae-style
s: ...:)...
k: hahahaha
k: no man you and i. the two-- oh wait. oh yes. i dont know lol. that just kind of slipped in there haha
k: amused
s: HAQ
s: ,..
s: no q
k: but anyhow yeah, shae on e yo. (aww but i like the q lol)
k: verrrry amusing haha
k: she basically spent the entire night like stroking phil's nose
s: i'm having a very hard time brushing my teeth right now i hope you know
k: lol!
k: dude
k: you and your bathroom
k: ahahah

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s: you know what i just realized about us?
s: and im going to share because i like giving you livefeed sarah thoughts
k: yay:)
s: which is rare for people. live feed anyway. so dont take it for granted haha
k: and dude, never. priveleged yo haha
s: i think why we get on so well, in terms of our half real life/half online friendship
s: is because i acknowledge that we're different on the page and in the flesh... meanwhile, in the past, i've had all these insecurities about seeming different to people from one medium of communication to the next
s: but with you, it's like i'm at peace with the difference in behaviours, depending on how we're communicating
s: because i like the dynamics in both cases
s: (that's the condensed version i guess... *sigh)
k: yeah i like that (hahaha aw im amused but no that really sucks lol) though, i like how its two different dynamics. allows for multiple strands to the friendship in a sense.. which im too exhausted to explain properly but the sentiment is there lol
k: *my cop out lol
k: but yeah, im probably going to have to leave you soon and crash *pillow still so inviting lol
s: no its ok, i just wanted to get out MY current thoughts. you dont necessarily have to have some super awesome comeback statement of agreement. just agree:) hahah
k: yay i like it when you go all stream of consciousness too lol i hate it when people hold back *irritation lol