- Lately, I've been following a strict diet of earl grey tea, apple-grape juice and Kirkland Signature cranberry juice (specifically). They all have designated times of drinkage. Yes.
- I'm at peace when I am listening to Beirut and playing Minesweeper.
- I stay up late every night usually out of habit, but lately, out of necessity.
- I carry around an inumerable amount of insecurities. Some of them are stupid and some of them are normal, I guess.
I worry about my teachers liking me, my friends liking me, my best guy friend feeling comfortable around me now, whether or not I actually possess the smarts to succeed in college, whether or not I will one day be like Kate in "The Go-Getter"...
No, let's face it
1. Zooey Deschanel is as unique as it gets and I could never be like her.
2. My teachers might like me sometimes for my personality, but sometimes I can be really sucky when it comes to actually paying attention in their classes.
...aaaand as for the other points, I'm kind of too lazy to get into any more detail. The two mentioned above are the two things that are bothering me most right now, anyway.
I think what I was trying to get at though, before I got off track, was:
I want my life to be like in The Go-Getter. I want spontenaity and awkwardness. I want honesty and freedom of expression, without fear of being judged. I want an adventure and a purpose. I want a boy like Mercer in my life.
Actually... to be perfectly honest with you, there is a boy like Mercer in my life...
Unfortunately our situation is different and we will never be possible. In fact, it is likely that we'll never even meet properly.
*Sigh* I seem to be volontarily creating problems for myself all over the place.
I don't know what else to say.
I'm going to go have a midnight snack, grab Eclipse from my sister's room and read in bed.
Alternatively, I may decide to go have a bath since I'm so sore from ruggers. We'll see.
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